Hi guys,
I want to take some time to write out and explain why I decided to start this journey enjoying the company that I work for. Around this time last year, I had a major surgery. It was a very tough decision on whether or not I should go through with the surgery, as it meant that a very important and difficult decision had to be made. Ultimately, the reason why I went forward with this surgery was because my general quality-of-life was being affected. I wasn’t willing to allow the quality time, and memories that I was able to make with my family be affected anymore. I remember times when I just felt like I had to fake it, even though I didn’t feel great, or was in pain,. That feeling of being uncomfortable, and just having to push through. I was excited, and nervous over the idea of potentially never having to feel like this again. We live in a day and age where it’s such a blessing to even be able to have such a choice!
So I decided to go through with the surgery, everything went smoothly, and once they did a biopsy I was able to find out that there was an underlying condition causing a lot of my discomfort and pain over the larger part of my life so far. It was like a new opportunity going forward. Knowing that there was a justified reason for how I had been feeling for all those years with such peace of mind. I was excited to move forward, to live without discomfort, and all of the ups and downs that I had come so accustomed to. Having a major surgery meant that I was off of work for seven weeks. During that time it was a lot of healing both physically and mentally. Let’s just say I had a lot of time to think...
I thought a lot about my kids and my husband, and how much my family means to me. I thought about how I really want to give my kiddos the best life possible. As I started to heal and feel a little bit better, I was able to get my kids ready for school in the morning, take them to school, and pick them up after school. I slowly started to move more, and do little things throughout the day to help me feel like I wasn’t totally useless while healing LOL. It was the first time in my kiddos life that I was able to do these things because normally I have already left for work. I loved being there for them in this way.
Some thing that I was really thinking about a lot during my time off, was the fact that I wasn’t really doing much for myself. I love being a mom, and a wife, and I love being a teacher. But, what was I doing for myself? Did I have any hobbies? Was I fulfilling my own interests at all? It's tough when you come to a stiff reality that leaves you realizing that at some point you sort of left all of the things that you did for yourself, in order to step up to the role of being a mom.
It’s funny in life how you can be somewhat blindsided by A turn in your path, that you never would’ve noticed unless it was the perfect timing.
I honestly think, if I wasn’t off from work at the time, and given the chance to slow my pace and evaluate what was important to me in life, then I never would have decided to take on this opportunity and be a part of a new company.
It took me a few days to think about it, but during those few days it kept popping into my mind. What if this is the hobby that I need to start? I love close, I love fashion, and it could be a great opportunity for me and my family. After thinking for a few days and doing my own research, and talking to another rep, I decided I was going to just go for it. There was really nothing to lose!
What was on the other side of this mountain that I had climbed was an opportunity to reinvent myself. Slowly, I inched out of my comfort zone, and instead of watching social media, and admiring all of the people that I enjoyed following, I set out to do the same thing but through this time through my own eyes.
Being a part of this company has become a hobby that I never knew i was looking for. The opportunity to creatively express myself. To connect with other women like myself. To work with them, and more importantly to grow and learn together! This is something I do for myself. It offers me fulfilment joy and happiness when I get to help style my friends and other women. When I can communicate/share with new friends and share the things that are of interest to me.
This is been such an amazing journey, that started almost one year ago today. I feel blessed but most of all I feel proud of myself for stepping out of my regular old comfort zone and choosing to offer myself more! Its important for me to share this with all of you because I KNOW there are many other women who feel the same way that I was feeling, and I would love to share this with you too!